If you are an enneagram 4 do you feel like you don't completely fit in? As if you are always looking for evidence that you are left out or that someone else is favored more than you? I do this at work, in my family, in my circle of friends. Quietly feeling unaccepted or that someone else is the "favorite" or "better sibling". I will look for little signs of rejection.
But then it is as if I don't want to fit in. I'm different afterall (we all are). I don't care enough about group dynamics that well...I am also sx/sp (so last).
So there is this feeling of being "separated" from everyone else that I am constantly struggling with...how to fit into the group but maintain my own identity. Then there is the aspect that I can be moody and introspective and do I continue hide that part of myself?
Ultimately I feel weird. I like it. I need to hide it from others. But hiding it feels inauthentic, so I show that side of me feel rejected and the cycle repeats.
Just would love to hear from other e4s...
But then it is as if I don't want to fit in. I'm different afterall (we all are). I don't care enough about group dynamics that well...I am also sx/sp (so last).
So there is this feeling of being "separated" from everyone else that I am constantly struggling with...how to fit into the group but maintain my own identity. Then there is the aspect that I can be moody and introspective and do I continue hide that part of myself?
Ultimately I feel weird. I like it. I need to hide it from others. But hiding it feels inauthentic, so I show that side of me feel rejected and the cycle repeats.
Just would love to hear from other e4s...