Member Questionnaire (mjgonz92)

What is beauty? Beauty can be seen in many ways. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, therefore we all have our own idea of it. I choose to see beauty in situations where people overcome difficulties and poor circumstances. I see beauty in everything around me, because I choose to add value to nearly anything in my surroundings. What others might pass off as something small and take for granted, those are the things in which I can see beauty in.

What is love? It's when you finally set aside your own selfish needs/wants aside, to care for someone else.

I value knowledge, strength, and determination.

I don't. Although, I won't say it isn't a possibility in the near future. I believe a little more self-introspection needs to be done, and maybe one day I'll know what to believe.

I can see this from any angle. I don't have a strong opinion on military/war, for that reason.

Power to me, is the endpoint in which someone determined enough will eventually be rewarded for all their hard work.

Why people do the things they do, cause and effect of people's choices, how the human brain works, how we all as humans perceive reality in different ways.

I'm interested in science, psychology, researching to understand what comes to mind in any given moment, cooking new dishes (I get tired of the same thing all the time), taking my 3 and 5 year old sons somewhere new everyday to give them a new experience.

Yes, pretty interested

I'm in tune with my own body. I can always tell when something seems off. But I have a problem where I delay to take care of any problem I think I may have. I also forget to eat because I get absorbed in whatever I'm doing at the moment, and will put it off until I'm absolutely starving.

I've always hated chores. I just do them because my kids shouldn't have to grow up in a filthy home.

Anything that revolves around WWII. Seriously. Even as a child, I was interested in war books and movies. Pretty much the only genre that can keep me interested, other than a good psychological thriller.

I've never been much of a cry baby, until recently. After going through deaths in the family, divorce, moving, and theft from my own home, eventually everything sort of took its toll. My mom told me she could tell I was on the verge of tears for everything I'd been dealing with, and that's when I finally released the tears lol. I'm more comfortable with crying as a release these days, at 25 years old.

Smile? When my kids are happy. When I get a new experience under my belt. Visiting new places. Whatever gives me constant stimulation, and not necessarily physically. More of a mental thing.

Road trips, and at the top of a mountain. But this is usually during harder times when I need an escape.
Other times, I love being out and about. Rarely ever at home.

My parents think I'm secretive. Which may be somewhat true, but I have an incredibly extroverted personality. I suppose I'll pick and choose which parts of myself to put out there. But if anyone asks my opinion, I will give it freely. They ask a question, I have no problem answering. But be prepared for a lengthy answer lol. Another weakness I get a lot is that I over analyze everything in life. I may ask a lot of questions to understand something. I think it annoys others, but I find it necessary anyway. I'm trying to work on it.

What do I dislike about myself? My inability to just take it easy, and relax. My mind is either going a million mph, and it also causes me to move about without taking a seat. I can wander aimlessly. If I ever do lay down, it's from exhaustion because I get very dehydrated and am on my feet all day because my kids.

I also dislike that I can't go to sleep until much later because my brain decides to tell me "hey you might be exhausted, but it's time to learn something new before you can finally get some rest."

I don't necessarily dislike this about myself, but I think I can come off as full of myself. I have a hard time toning it down, yet I know I should.

Strengths? Well one that I've heard many times is my own determination to keep going, no matter what life throws at me. I admire it in myself too, and have a tendency to look down on others that can't do the same. I'm a lazy person, and if I can get through anything, I'm sure anyone could.

I like that I don't hold grudges. I can get irritated about something, but forget about it a couple minutes later. I don't get people that hold grudges.

Being more productive lol.
I need to stop procrastinating.

I have my moments, but again, I have the determination to pull through anyway. And this is a lazy person we are talking about here haha. Determination is a mental thing anyway. And I consider myself very strong in that sense.

I admire someone that follows through, because I'm terrible at it. Those that keep their word. I never make people a promise, because I know that 70% of the time I probably wouldn't follow through anyway. I admire someone that can provide stability, and that is a big one. I should stress how important that is, because I have a hard time producing it myself.

I also like people that remain calm, and don't react emotionally to situations. I don't know how to deal with strong emotions from others, and tend to look dumbfounded when someone reacts in such a way.

I noticed a tendency for anyone I've considered a friend or someone "marriage material" to be of the ISFJ MBTI type. I think I'm a little silly, random and quirky at times, but they still enjoy my presence and having me around. I usually attract SJ type males in general.

I love sex. But I know how to separate the emotional part of things from sex. I can be intimate, but it's never in a sappy, extended eye contact type of way. I will laugh if it happens lol. I do require some kind of mental connection, if that makes sense. I won't have sex with just anyone. But if they are able to intrigue me and stimulate my brain, then they can stimulate my body.

Romance is nice, and it would be great to have. But I don't care for sentimental, Hallmark card, expensive dinner date type of romance. Just knowing both people care for each other's well being and will do what it takes to make their relationship thrive and improve is my kind of romance.

I already raise children. I don't do it the conventional way, because my older one has autism and needs extra help. My younger one drives me insane at times with how I can give him anything he needs, but he will still cry and scream just to get a reaction out of me.

What measures do I take? I'm still trying to figure that out, because each day is very different in an autism household haha.

Oh well? Everyone has different beliefs. I try to take into consideration how they might react if I were to challenge their belief with my own, so most of the time I won't say anything, just so as not to offend the other. Sometimes I can still be blunt in my reaction and what I say, anyway. Really it just depends.

Society could be improved in so many ways. I could come up with many ways, but I am not sure I could carry it out.

I see that too many people are guided by their own feelings, and I find it to be a problem. It's not something I think can be changed though.

Social problem? People believe everything on the internet and media. They live their lives by it, as if it's their own bible.

I choose them based on similar personality characteristics. It's harder to make friends with other women.
I am polite, but I'm very talkative and will discuss anything.

Sometimes I can be loud. Other times I'm quiet, depends on setting. I'm just myself though.