Member Questionnaire (Rei)

I usually see beauty in terms of harmonious physical features/something aesthetically pleasing when it comes to the arrangement of color, texture, shape, etc.
Love to me is the willingness to sacrifice ourselves for someone else, or prioritizing someone else's needs above our own, also compassion and forgiveness.

Respect is paramount, respect of boundaries, of other people's will, and of people's dignity and integrity. I also greatly value loyalty and honor/pride.

I am an atheist, but I believe in reincarnation simply because I think it would be pretty senseless to live just this one life and then losing our consciousness to the nothingness of death, losing all we were and learned. I believe that whatever it is that animates us is not lost. I would like to believe we humans and other species in the Universe are on constant spiritual evolution thanks to reincarnation. This is just a belief, please don't roast me.

War terrifies me, not so much the battle itself (of course I am also very afraid of that) but what really makes me feel I have a shrinking stomach is that there are people in positions of power who make decisions that can wipe great amounts of the population. The fact that these predatorial/covert groups exist is what really scares me.

War is something that marks a country and will have a very severe impact on its victims that may take decades to overcome; scars are left on people's minds, in their hearts, in the economy, and international relations. Many soldiers who are sent to the battlefield will never be able to remake their lives. Families will suffer do to the effects of these impacts and more social problems follow such as delincuency and corruption.
War is also a very proffitable bussiness for those manufacturing and selling weapons, warfare equipment, fuel, etc; which makes it even scarier.

Power is the capability and freedom to exert one's will and to overcome obstacles. A powerful person cannot be bound or repressed.

I usually have long conversations with my close friends and siblings when we are discussing our personal experiences, especially when sharing an emotional, romantic, or thraumatic experience.
I really like finding out what makes a person tick.

I like homeopathic and alternative medicine a lot. I also like learning about nutrition and use it as a way to prevent illness and ensure adequate levels of macronutrients and micronutrients.
I am not that focused on my body, although I definitely make it a point to take care of myself, I believe in the saying "a healthy mind in a healthy body", so I keep myself eating enough and healthy (most of the time, I do love desserts and treats) and also make sure to get enough sleep, water, and aerobic + weight lifting exercise. I have to push myself to get to the weights, but I do it because of the same reason I eat the kale I'm not exactly loving.

I do not enjoy daily chores; usually I try to just get them all done in one day that I dedicate mostly to housekeeping (laundry, ironing clothes, cleaning, etc). I only do it because I get really uncomfortable in messy surroundings; my room is definitely a bit messy, I'd say it's 75% orderly.

I love Spirited Away by Hayao Miyazaki,

I cried when I saw a picture of a person whom I know has been through a very painful life crisis, because I know they were alone in that moment the picture was taken.
I smiled when trading jokes with a friend recently.

Late night walks help me feel good

I am very cowardly when it comes to direct confrontation. I very much dislike that about myself, as well as the anxiety
that overwhelms me. There is usually a third party who comes to my aid and I feel very guilty/embarrased for burdening them and depending on them, it goes without saying that I also have a hard time asking for help. I am very prone to doubting myself and tend to lack confidence.

I am very insigthful, and can apply myself industriously in order to succeed academically and professionally.

I would like help in developping more of a backbone so that confrontation (a normal part of life) doesn't drain me and scare me as it does.

I tend to be dedicated mostly to only studying/working and don't dedicate much time to the things I really want to do
, like art and self-expression.

I like people who are self-aware, who have a sense of pride/honor, and make it a point to invest in their self-improvement. I dislike people who are pushy or aggressive for the sake of it. I also very much dislike manipulative people.
I get along with people who are calm, kind, and self-controlled.

I am very romantic and sensual, and tend to be caught by surprise by my own impulses when I am strongly attracted to someone, but I am very discreet because the idea of being found out is dreadful. Romance is the spice of life; I think we get to know much about ourselves through relationships, and a person is to be selected very carefully in order to invest myself mentally, emotionally, and physically.
I look for someone whose word I can count on, it is of paramount importance that they will not take advantage of me or of the vulnerability that comes with loving someone. Qualities I find very attractive are a positive, proactive, "can do" attitude.

I am very keen on not having children. I do not think I am fit to be a good parent at my current level of mental health. I developped low self esteem due to negative experiences during childhood and firmly believe I must be at the peak of my physical and mental health to be worthy of the responsibility of raising another human being. Moreover, by the looks of how the world is going, being born is not looking very thrilling. If I comply with the said conditions, I would much rather adopt a child, someone who was already born and is in need of a home and a family.
I would raise a child with love and discipline, I would take a very active role in their life and make sure they have the knowledge and tools they need to be happy and healthy. Private education for sure, and sport(s) of their choice as well.
My main concerns would be to make sure the child knows they are loved and safe, have a good set of morals that allows them to see their own importance as well as that of others, and that they have a good education to be able to fend for themselves once I'm gone.
Measures to take besides schooling and practicing sports would be implementing rules such as a specific bedtime (when they are little), no smoking, drugs, and no drinking, helping around the house, keeping their room reasonably clean, and so forth.

My inward reaction is to ask myself why they think this way, or where are they coming from, what experiences did they have that shaped their thinking like this; outwardly I only listen.

I am a very isolated person so I am not very aware of prevalent societal issues.

I choose my friends usually guided by a gut feeling; the lifelong friends I made I approached initially and started cracking jokes and teasing them pretty quickly. I behave in a mischievous way, sometimes (when there's no people around) I'm even boisterous.
At times I observe them for a bit, but usually I just get a feeling after meeting them.

Around strangers I am reserved and polite. I am also very yielding, and will normally not engage in conversation unless spoken to.