Member Questionnaire (nerdyburnie)

Beauty is hard to define because, at least in my opinion, it is largely relative. Someone would obviously view their own creation as more beautiful than probably anyone else would because it is a product of their own imagination. So, I think beauty is somewhat defined by a person's subjective experiences with an object or a person. Love, on the other hand, is even more difficult for me to define. I don't know why, but love has always been a difficult concept for me to grasp. I've often wondered if I even truly love anyone. However, I tend to quantify it on the lengths you would go to keep that person in your life and what you would sacrifice for that person.

I place a whole lot of value on my intelligence. I've always been a considered well above average in terms of intellect, and I place more importance on it than I would like to admit. It's one of the biggest things that makes me me. I also highly value my freedom. I completely DESPISE being bounded down by rules. I'm a little rebellious by nature. I like to live my life the way that I want to, and when people try to infringe upon my right to do that, I often get very angry and aggressive.

I am a Christian, but I don't believe I am like a lot of Christians in the way I think. I am very scientifically inclined in a way that a lot of Christians aren't, and I adore math and physics. I sort of think of it as my duty to bridge the gap between science and religion. To me, they don't seem mutually exclusive. As for why I hold the beliefs I do, I believe that there is too much order in the universe for there not to be some intelligent force behind it. I don't know. That's just my personal experience.

I think nations should obviously try to minimize the need for war as much as possible. As for what power is to me, power seems to me like having the necessary resources and the freedom to do whatever you please.

A lot of the long conversations I've had have been debates about superheroes, to be honest. Mostly about which one is the best. As for my interests, obviously superheroes is one of them, but also probably math, physics, psychology a little bit, and I'm starting to get into circuits and electronics. I'm not exactly sure why, but for math, there is just something satisfying about seeing a proof and the logic leading down to that ultimate conclusion. It's like all the parts of system just fitting into place.

God no, I hate talking about health and medicine. I suck at taking care of myself, and when people lecture me about it, it's just boring. I do genuinely want to change and care about my health, but I just find it draining. I am somewhat focused on my body, though, and often when I'm feeling uncomfortable, I turn on one of those ASMR videos are on YouTube. People like to hate on those sort of things, but honestly, they are relaxing.

I hate them. When I was younger, I would get so angry when my parents would tell me to do anything. Even now, I procrastinate until the last minute to do anything. I don't know why. They're just boring, and I don't feel like doing them. But I guess I do them because I have to.

I recently read and enjoyed Aldous Huxley's Brave New World, so that was interesting. I generally science fiction more than any other genre by far. I'm especially a big fan of superhero movies. There's just something so fascinating and interesting about heroes like Iron Man and Spider-Man. I just love them. I also recently watched The Truman Show, and my god, it is an amazing movie. It has to be one of my all-time favorite movies.

I hardly ever cry, and I have no idea why. It's not that I have no emotions, because I do. I feel sadness. I just almost never cry. The only times where tears really come out of my eyes are during allergy season and when I am in an intense rage. As for what makes me smile, I guess the usual stuff like funny jokes. Sometimes I grin when a previously passive character in a movie starts to become aggressive.

I only really fully feel at one with my environment when I'm either at home or joking around with my friends. In any other situation or place, I may not feel too awkward, but I'm far from "at one with my environment."

People have told me that I am not outgoing enough. Truth be told, I do dislike that about myself. I wish I was capable of being more friendly and social, and it just doesn't come naturally to me. It's not that I am incapable of interacting with people. Far from it. It's just I can come off a little bit cold and reserved.

It seems that people value my intelligence above all. Though, sometimes people enjoy my slightly odd nature. It's like a breath of fresh air for people who only know normalcy. For me, what I value above all in myself is my imagination. Ever since I was a young kid, I have had an almost overactive imagination. The subject of my made-up stories would always primarily be superheroes, but sometimes I liked to fantasize about medieval kingdoms. The stories would always be overly complicated and a bit all over the place, involving time travel, futuristic technology, and other science fiction things. But yeah, I still even think about my fictional stories now. A lot of times I lack the motivation to actually write down or realize my ideas, but I still pride myself on my ability to generate them.

I sort of have trouble opening up to people, so I would like help in that area. Other than that, I don't really feel like I need much help. I don't like to ask for help much.

Yeah, I do sometimes. I feel stuck in a rut whenever there's nothing really going on in my life. I like my life to be active and dynamic, and when nothing is changing, I notice and desperately try to get things moving again.

I don't like people who are loud, obnoxious, and use bland humor. In some people, their humor is just bland and mostly just relies on shouting as the punchline. I really dislike those sorts of people. I generally get along better with introverts rather than extroverts. I generally tend to fall into the area of ambivert, but I prefer interacting with introverts. The extroverts (well, maybe the more accurate term is "socialites") I've come across have been shallow, and I generally don't like interacting with them.

I consider myself a romantic person. I can obsess over people quickly, because the second I meet them and we get things going I start to think there's more to our relationship than there really is. As for qualities, I tend to want someone who likes me for me, with all of my quirks and peculiarities.

If I was to raise a child, I think I would try to make them interested in intellectual things like I am. I have a tendency of being too distant, so I would probably overcompensate and spend much more time with my child than I need to. Either that or I probably will end up being too occupied with my own pursuits and not give the child enough of my attention, which is probably the more likely outcome.

Well, I don't know, it depends on how they say it. I'd probably inwardly start to get a little angry because of how outrageous of a claim they've made. But outwardly, I try not to start a conflict and just respectfully debate the claim with him. Either that, or it turns into a full-blown argument. Either way, I don't rest until I win the argument/debate.

I'm quite individualistic and sort of consider myself as a separate entity from society. I've never really been one to fit in with the crowd much, and to be honest I think that has helped me. Because of that sort of mentality of not being like everyone else, I am highly independent and know how to do things on my own without people's help. However, I guess it has made me a little averse to working with other people. One prevalent social problem, in my opinion, is people's tendency to go along with the popular opinion. Some people can just act like sheep, and I'm not particularly fond of those people.

I don't really consciously choose my friends. I just try to wait and see who I immediately click with. I generally tend to make friends with other intelligent people mostly, although recently I've been making friends with people who are a little more average. Around my friends, I laugh at pretty much anything anyone says. It's interesting because I never laugh when I'm alone watching a comedy or something, but when I'm with my friends, even the slightest joke fills me with joy. In short, I either never laugh, or I always laugh.

I'm pretty shy around strangers, to be honest. I don't like starting unnecessary conversations. I have a tendency of being awkward and weird around new people, so I'm not to keen to throw myself into those situations.