Help Type Me!

​I'm too shy to do a video just yet, so I filled out the full questionnaire.

Tell me about yourself.
I’m from the Unites States. I’m in college. I sleep most of the time, and I watch tv the other half. Every other day I’m probably playing video games with my friends or working on personal projects and watching movies (or going to restaurants) with my girlfriend.

What do you study or do for a living? How did you come to do that? What do you like or dislike about it?
I study writing and visual mediums. I enjoy the flexibility and the ability to apply my own ideas to them, though I tend to dislike the strain of learning a new technique or realizing what aspects I’m flawed in concerning either practice. I like bugs too; they’re pretty neat.

What are your values, and why?
I just want people to improve themselves and get good at whatever skills they enjoy the most; there’s nothing quite like playing to your strengths and developing the self. I don’t like bullies, either; I feel it’s very easy for people to slip into a mentality where they feel like they can and should put down other people, and this comes out especially in disgusting mob mentalities.

What else do you do on a daily basis? What are your interests and hobbies? Why do you do them?
Write, draw, look for drama online… anything mind-numbing really. I get all comfortable n stuff. I develop characters and work on new cool story aspects I find. I enjoy seeking out and reading all kinds of weird facts; I love searching for information and just learning things. Ever since I was a kid I’ve always had a big fascination with animals… there’s just so much out there in the world and the universe that we don’t know about, and it surprises us every day. I think it’s super neat to learn a new fact; you never know what could change the way you perceive a given topic. It's so cool to see something in a piece of media, and follow the feeling that evokes within me... I try to channel these given feelings into my own pieces.

Describe your relations with family and friends. What do you like and dislike about them?
I’m glad we have similar views advocating the acceptance of alternative lifestyles, and in a lot of ways I definitely owe my current stances and beliefs to them. Mostly. We generally get along and can have productive talks; I always learn something from them. I feel like I take my dad’s love of film and visual media, and my mom’s aversion to parties and other social gatherings.
At the same time, though, I prefer to largely be by myself, and they can be a bit clingy at times.

What do you look for in friends? In romantic relationships?
That immediate spark telling me we speak the same language. I need that instant sort of connection to somebody that shows we’re just on the same page. Common interests and a similar sense of humor contribute heavily to this, but really I feel most comfortable with those I feel a strong, unexplainable connection to. My best friends ate the ones where we immediately sort of feel just where the other is about to go with a joke or a point.
I need support too, for sure. I doubt myself easily, and I always need that reassurance in my life; I need someone who can just tell me things are going to be alright, and that I don’t need to worry about it. I look for relationships where I’m consistently supported and motivated; where I’m helped and paid attention to. I’m pretty needy (been described as “hopeless” by some), and having someone close to me emotionally can really alleviate that need.

What conflicts have you encountered recently with other people? Why did they happen? Which kinds seem to happen on a regular basis?
On a regular basis, I’ve had a number of people (family and friends alike) totally misinterpret what I’m telling them, which annoys the hell out of me. Recently, though, I experienced a pretty bad cooking accident and a bunch of stuff got everywhere. I was trying to clean that shit up, and a certain family member couldn’t stop laughing about it. It was real obnoxious; I’d prefer if they just shut their mouth and let me work at fixing it in peace. I don’t need their distracting side comments to rub in my mistake; I could get over it if nobody said anything. Of course, that isn’t how it came across as at all to them; they believed they were lightening the mood and giving advice… but I wasn’t having it.

How would your friends describe you?
They’d see me as someone creative, but also as someone who is real sensitive and needy. Most people just think I’m kinda funny and I guess. See more below; I feel like this bleeds totally into the next question as I’m always asking for feedback on myself.

What do people generally see as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
“It’s so cool that you’re not scared to be who you are.”
I’m unapologetically myself. No bullshit, no games. I’m not confrontational, and I generally try to solve conflicts by having both parties halfway. When I was younger I turned some other kids from enemies with one another into friends this way. And, uh, people say I’m really creative too and can really improvise in art and writing when things aren’t going well… actually, everyone who knows me would say I’m incredibly creative and imaginative. I’m also apparently really unconditionally accepting of others, and I generally don’t care about much of their insecurities. I’m apparently really imaginative too, and people say I come up with all kinds of cool ideas, plotlines, characters, and designs.

What are your weaknesses? What criticism do you often face from others? What do you dislike about yourself?
Onto weaknesses, it’s painfully obvious to everyone I know that I’m incredibly sensitive. Most things don’t bother me, but the moment I’m put on the spot, I get all broody and just retreat away. I can be put in a bad mood for a long time, and it’s hard for me to focus. I get stressed out incredibly easily, too, though, and I can’t work under pressure… especially when somebody is applying that pressure to me directly. I’m apparently real needy too (according to my girlfriend, I’m about as needy as the young children she works with, so take what you will from that), and I always need that extra leg of support from someone. I can feel vulnerable very easily, and it’s hard to articulate my thoughts outside of text. I can't handle being called out in front of people, and I can't handle that burning feeling of embarrassment. Lastly, according to everybody I know, I overthink things too much, and look into possibilities and hypothetical aspects of situations where I really shouldn’t… and negatively so, as I tend over-analyze and emphasize the negative aspects of events I’ve experienced. Every damn person I know says I get moody and melancholic for no reason.

In what areas of life can you manage well on your own? In what areas of your life would you like help?
I can manage my level of motivation fairly well; I’m good with useless stuff like that, and even though I’m prone to despair I usually bounce back.
Outside of that, I pretty much need help with everything else. I need, like, clear directions on operating stuff cause I’m never certain (and I don’t really pay attention to) even basic shit.

What things do you find to be a chore? What things do you enjoy more than others?
Arguing is a chore. I get way too flustered in debates and can’t really speak, especially when I’m up against a bunch of people.
I can safely say I probably enjoy being inside more than other people. Being inside, and swimming.

What goals, aspirations, or plans do you have for the future? How did you come to have them?
I would like to become a writer or an artist for graphic novels. I’ve just found that ever since I was a kid I’ve enjoyed the medium, and I would like to contribute to it with my own ideas and storytelling.

If you had enough money to live comfortably for the rest of your life without working, what would you do with your time?
Write. Draw. Video games. Chill with my friends. Publish my work once I get good enough at it.

What traits do you find endearing that others might dislike? What traits are considered positive/neutral by others but tend to annoy you?
It’s endearing to me when somebody is being a witty or rude goofball for the heck of it; it’s especially fun when aren’t doing it necessarily to antagonize anybody in particular, but they’re just doing it to get laughs and be weird. Disrupting the order with humor is fun. A lack of tact or censorship in dialogue for the sake of humor is funny as hell too, but it really annoys some people… which I don’t really get. Verbal sparring and stuff is super great, but it gets on people’s nerves.

What kinds of things do you do to manage and/or beautify your environment (your room, your house, etc.)? What do you think of daily chores?
Not much for the former. I just sort of push the stuff I don’t want into a corner… or let it pile up until it spreads into the rest of the room. I do a big cleaning spree when it piles up too much though, or if I need it presentable for guests.

How do you behave around strangers?
Awkwardly. I sort of just screen them from the sidelines and wait for an opportunity to make some awful joke. I try to avoid them usually, since I don’t want to have to make awkward small talk I really do not care about. It’s so tough for me to take initiative that I just wait for an opportunity to crack a joke. If it falls flat, it’s paralyzing.

How do you react to conflict? What do you do if somebody insults or attacks you?
Hate it, when it concerns me. I’m a decent mediator when other people are in conflict, since I feel like I can view it from external, objective position, but when I’m the focus of it I fold completely. I can’t handle pressure or being put on the spot negatively, and it stresses me the hell out. I trip and stutter over my words and get kind of heated. I internalize it and dwell on it long after the fact, too.

What is one common misconception that people have? Explain why it is wrong.
Hating spiders. Like, ew, spiders are great. They get rid of the real obnoxious types of bugs, and the majority of them around here can’t hurt you at all.

What did you do last Friday?
Took my girlfriend to dinner.

What is your biggest accomplishment?
I don’t think I can say. Nothing particularly feels like it’s been worth it for me yet; I still feel like I’m just on a journey, and I’ll accomplish something in the near future.

What is something you regret?
I used to be a little, uh, emotionally manipulative and more over-reactive and confrontational. I get high-strung very easily, and I can’t exactly handle stress, so as a teen I really couldn’t get a grip on my behavior sometimes.

Who do you admire, and why?
I admire those who are comfortable with their lives. I admire the type of people who do what they want and what they enjoy. They’re just so comfy and happy with themselves and their confidence is amazing. I like successful people who got to where they are in life and love doing what they do- it’s just a level of happiness I want to achieve. I admire creators, especially; there’s nothing quite like becoming successful for your ideas, and it’s something I hope to accomplish in the future.

What's been on your mind? Has anything been worrying or concerning you? What problems have you encountered lately?
Depression I guess. My tendency to shift into melancholy and moodiness, and wondering if I’ll ever truly get out of it.

What are your religious or spiritual beliefs and why do you hold them?
I don’t possess any religious beliefs, but I’m not opposed to them either. My spiritual beliefs concern just, y’know, doing what you want without hurting others. The sort of values I think everybody holds on some level.

What are your political beliefs, and why? To what extent do you care about politics?
Freedom to generally be oneself. Really American views, obviously. I’m not super invested in politics, which kind of shows in that type of idealism; it’s not realistic, but I couldn’t see myself getting super far into it, and I generally don’t like being at the far extremes of political viewpoints. I’ve got a big individualistic streak, so the idea of people being able to freely pursue their dreams is cool.

Would you ever be interested in starting a business? Why or why not? What role would you play in it? What kind of business would it be?
I doubt I would ever start a business. If I did, however, it would have to be something relating to the type of content I’d love to create. Not likely, though.

What kind of work environment do you prefer? What do you look for in a job?
I’m always looking for a low pressure environment. Just some place where I don’t have to focus on specific deadlines, and I sort of have the freedom to do my own thing. You know, the dream. That said, regarding deadlines, it's hard to be motivated without that fire under your ass so... hmmm... self-imposed deadlines. All planned out in advance, for me to stress over but in a healthy way. Probably makes less sense than it did in my head.

What is or was your favorite school subject and why?
Always been a fan of writing and art as subjects. I get a lot of freedom just to express myself and do what I want, and even now people like the work I produce, so, yeah.

How do you approach responsibility? What do you tend to expect of others?
I don’t like the weight of responsibility, but if I have to do something I may as well get it out of the way. I try to get everything done, because the ensuing guilt of failing to uphold a responsibility kinda stings. I don’t really have super specific expectations of others; I’m not anal like that. I just expect some general politeness, transparency, and a sense of humor.

Where did you go on your most recent vacation? What did you do there? How did you like it and why?
Quebec was really comfy, I’ll admit. I was with a couple of friends, and it was mostly a sightseeing tour.

What were you like as a kid? How have you changed since you were a child?
I was a class clown with a high-strung perfectionist streak; everybody loved me, and the ones who didn’t, loved me ironically. Only thing that’s significantly changed is the lack of emotional outbursts; I can definitely contain myself now, and I really don’t quite like showing off my feelings as much.

What was your high school experience like?
That awkward developmental stage where you curse yourself for being not like all the other kids and drown in angst and get all “deep” and whatever. So the same as now, but with more crying.
Really, though, I tried to make people laugh a lot. Wrote and drew stuff for people in an attempt at finding my niche.

Talk about a significant event from your life.
I’d rather not, honestly; it’s difficult for me to find any significant events that I’m willing to describe. Most are pretty personal.

Do you like kids? Why or why not?
Yeah, they’re pretty neat. They’re cute, and I just think it’s cool seeing them from an older perspective now. My girlfriend works with them, so she gets a lot of firsthand interaction.

If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
Making sure the child can learn when to be skeptical, and when to prevent themselves from falling into a type of toxic relationship or toxic mob mentality. I’d let them experience these sorts of situations on their own, as constructing it artificially isn’t exactly a valid indication of the real world; afterwards, I would talk them through it afterwards, letting them come to a more objective standpoint with some guidance.

Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
Oh yeah. Like I said, I’m fairly prone to despair, and I pretty much just mope around and get all moody. I basically stay like this until my mood changes later.

How do you see other people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
I understand that people can be hurt easily, and I understand that this can really define their perspective… but I feel there is a bit of a problem in this society of people taking that hurt and that pain and letting it cloud their judgment. There’s always been a pretty big scene of “us vs them” which really annoys me. I feel like people should be more willing to compromise and meet halfway on things, instead of letting their bitterness and these awful group mentalities cloud their individual judgment. I feel like we really could succeed, and more people could be happy. Yeah, I'm a filthy fence-sitter; so sue me.

What do you do if you're not getting what you want? What approach do you use?
I guess I try to be as transparent as possible on just what I want. I feel that it’s good to put your intentions forward, so there isn’t so much of a misunderstanding.

Are you comfortable taking leadership roles? In what areas? Why or why not?
I’ll only take a leadership role in a personal project; it’s my vision in that scenario, so I should have creative control. Outside of that, no, leading isn’t for me; too much work. Following? Sure, as long as I don’t have to waste too much energy either. I’m not a group person in general.

How often do you get angry? What kinds of things make you angry?
I hate it when others assume my motivations behind my actions or try to act like I’m pettier than I actually am. It doesn’t matter if they’re right or not; it’s just annoying and it pisses me off. I also hate when people try to apply some confrontational pressure on to me, or just won’t leave me alone; if I’m not talking to you and I’m trying to mind my own business, I think you should get the hint.

What is the best thing that happened to you during the past week?
Movie night binge with my girlfriend. Friends wanted in; I said no and they spammed my messages with gay porn. We all had a good laugh.

What is the worst thing that happened to you during the past week?
Don’t really remember, honestly. Little details and stuff don’t really come to me when I’m trying to recall stuff. So, umm, let’s say… the other day I realized I’d forgotten to do laundry. I guess.

What is the purpose of life? What do you find personally meaningful in life?
Self-actualization. Finding your niche, and what you like to do, and, y’know, doing it.

What is the most interesting place you have been, and why?
Quebec City, in the winter. I love how it’s an entire city dedicated to ice. Ice and snow are comfy as hell, and the whole winter aesthetic is one I just really enjoy. It’s not too hot there, and the people were very polite to me. I’ll probably go again.

How do you dress or manage your appearance?
I just go for whatever is most comfortable and practical, regarding clothing. I don’t particularly decorate my appearance or anything; I just throw on a jacket and get out of the house. A lot of people put a big emphasis on brands or types of shoes and whatnot, which I couldn’t care less about.

Do you like surprises?
Depends on the surprise. I usually don’t know how to react to them immediately though, as I’m pretty passive concerning them. I can fake excitement in these scenarios but it’s half-assed.

Is there anything else important about you that we should know?
My foot hurts. Also I’m usually busy with stuff so I may not reply immediately. Just a heads-up!