Hello. I've been interested in Socionics for quite a while, but I'm not sure what my actual type is. I've considered the 4 Ixxj types (LII, EII, ESI, and LSI) with Ji subtype. I do tend to relate to both irrational elements (introverted logic and ethics, Ti/Fi) as my lead, but I'm not sure which one is my lead and/or my role. Despite this, however, Ne and Se as my creative, don't really seem that strong to me. I've also considered some of the Reinin dichotomies, although some of them didn't really combine well for me to determine a Sociotype, so I'm focusing more on the 8 elements as a whole. I also apologize that this post is too long. It took me 2 days and I wrote the paragraphs on a memo.
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
1. I don't know what to say first. I'm not really concerned with beauty as much as some people I've known. The way I look at things is kind of unusual. I usually pretend they don't look like anything a all, even though I know how they look like in the first place. For some reason, beauty is never the first thing I think about when looking at something. Love is something I don't necessarily express, mainly because expressing love is kind of uncomfortable for me and whenever people do this, it annoys me a lot, to the point where I want them to stop expressing love, even though I've never been able to do so. It's difficult for me to give compliments to others.
2. What are your most important values?
2. The only thing I value in life is independence. The more I grew up, the less values I've had in life. I've been pretty neurotic lately and I can't necessarily find any values that are important to me or others, besides independence. The way I perceive others' "values" can come off as rather untrustworthy to me, especially with the fact most people tend overly tend to focus on them, while others don't really follow them in the first place. So, basically I can't see anything as valuable to me. It probably doesn't make any sense to anyone, but I think it does to me, at least.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
3. I grew up as a Christian, although I haven't been practically following my religion for a very long time, to the point where my mindset is starting to change towards everything. Strangely enough, I tend to forget about my religion pretty often and my other characteristics such as race, gender, and nationality. I don't know why, but I just don't really care enough about these things. My mom gets angry whenever I say things like this (as she is very religious herself) but I don't really care what she says about this topic. We've been having different views towards life and society lately.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
4. I'm not particularly someone who will ever go to war or military. My dad believed that I have to opportunity to anything that's related to war and/or military, just like other stereotypical men, but the reason why I'm avoidant with things like wars and militaries is because I don't care about them in the first place. Power is a delusional thing, in my opinion. Humans claim they have power, but their power is nowhere, but inside their heads. I mean, there's nothing I can do about people with "powers", but rather just ignore them, although ignoring someone I deemed as annoying, was a struggle for me.
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
5. I've had long conversations about gaming, specifically about Super Smash Bros., which was something I knew about for almost half a decade now. I just got to know someone that was interested in the series as well, and he knew abot the bigger aspects of the series as a whole, even the history of competitive Super Smash Bros. players, so that's how our conversations went. I'm not interested into other video games, besides Super Smash Bros., although I've been losing interest in the series lately, since it's gotten pretty old and tiring for my taste, so I don't really care about it as much anymore.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
6. Not really. I know what health is important, but I rarely take care of myself when it comes to personal hygiene. I rarely ever take showers (like once a week), rarely brush my teeth, never wash my face and later I get acne, and my hair is full of dandruff. When I was younger, I had tons of allergies, runny noses, and sore throats. I was easily overwhelmed by my allergies. I wish I focused more on my body in terms of health. I'm also strangely very underweight especially for my height, but a lot of people have told me that I should eat a lot more and exercise, but I'm very lazy.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
7. I don't like daily chordes at all. The only thing I can do daily chordes at home is to fix my bed, which I rarely ever do. My mom wanted me to do daily chordes once, so I can gain some energy, exercise, and confidence in life, but it never works. I always tell her no. She doesn't always ask me to do anything though, since she knows that I'm not interested in doing daily chordes. She's the only who does daily chordes at home and already gets tired of it. She believes she needa to takr a rest afterwards. Although, I know that she wants to make the house look cleaner and better, but I don't have the motivation to do anything at home.
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
8. I'll be honest, I don't read books nor watch movies. I just get overwhelmed by a lot of information that books have to provide and whenever I try to read, I can't do anything, but stop reading. It gives me a huge headache and sometimes I get dizzy while reading. just find it boring. Movies are just incredibly slow-paced, long, and boring, so I virtually don't care about them either. In fact, a lot of movies received negative reviews, so why should I watch them? Even watching actors on movies like idiots is just a waste of time. They're just a waste to society and the movie companies as a whole. I don't understand why people nowadays enjoy both of these things. However, music is worse than these two things and I can rant as much as I want about it. I can't recall what book I read or what movie I watched last.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
9. I've been emotionless, but also a lot more neurotic lately, but when I was younger, I always cried, because of bullying/people bothering me at school. I never talked to anybody at school, because it was a struggle for me and my mind couldn't handle socializing at all. People tried to talk to me, but afterwards, they started to hurt me physically and mentally. It's been 10 years since I've dealt with these issues. Although, I tried to move on from them, my outlook in society and real life changed a lot for now. As for smiling, it's not very common for me. Only a certain amount of things make me smile, such as achieving something that I never thought I could ever achieve. Or something that's coming inside my head, even though some people tend to be crazy, while others ask me why I'm laughing.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
10. When I use the Internet, I just focus on the Internet and forget what's actually outside of the Internet. However, whenever I go outside, I always have my head laying down and just keep overthinking stuff out of nowhere. When I look at something, such as a TV show, game, book, forum, I always wonder what would I do if I was in their world. When I'm at home, I know I'm at home, but it doesn't really matter to me all that much, since I'm at home every single day.
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
11. It depends on the person. Many people I met at a younger age, claimed that I lacked social and intellectual intelligence. Others claimed that I lacked confidence and empathy and I don't open up to others. Others claimed that I'm extremely weak when it comes to physical fights and sports. They believe I know nothing about TV shows, music, books and video games. Overall, they thought I was very stupid. They believed that I don't really deal with the outer world at all and that's kinda true, since I live at home all day doing absolutely nothing and have no social life. I'm not sure what I dislike about myself. Maybe the fact that I always keep secrets to everyone and may come off as cold and uncaring towards others. Almost every person I met believe that I absolutely hate everything and I don't know where they're coming from.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
12. I'm thinking academics only, although I don't find them as important as I used to. While I tend to do well in academics, I wasn't really a straight A student during high school and standardized testing was a huge problem for me. I never participated in extracurricular activities either, since they weren't actually my thing. The information we learned at school have become repetitive, to the point where I realize that schools only want you to learn/memorize the material and once you're done with the class, you dont have to think about the class again, which is pointless, because you'll forget everything afterwards. I'm not sure what I like about myself, to be honest. I'm actually that person that has no opinion towards themselves. I don't particularly like nor dislike myself.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
13. Interacting with the outer world and having a better and more optimistic look on real life and society. These two things can come off as a lot bigger than many people may think. I'm just struck here at home all day using the Internet going on forums for over 5 years now and whenever I talk with someone, I just get easily confused and don't really know what else to say to them. It makes me look stupid to other people whenever I try to talk to them, so that's why I tend to avoid contact with other people. I'm pretty much a cynic and a pessimist when it comes to the outer world. I don't think it offers anything that's particularly interesting to me and I dislike the fact that people tend to enjoy life in a optimistic and spontaneous manner.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes,s describe the causes and your reaction to it.
14. I had to look up the definition of the word "stuck in a rut", because I've never heard of it before up until yesterday/today. It takes me a while to recognize and understand words like this, since I don't really hear from other people, whether it's in real life or online. I'd say, yes I actually do, but I don't really mind or care. I've been used to this already. My daily routine is wake up, eat, go to school, stay there for 6-7 hours, come back home, eat, drink water, sleep. I'm pretty much on my room all day using the Internet, since I don't really have anything to do at home. My mom describes home as prison, because we barely do anything at home and we end up having a severe lack of communication to the outside world. This daily routine stays the same. It never changes. I'm also in the same mood everyday. Pretty much neutral, emotionless, bored, tired, sleepy, cynical and pessimistic, but I don't care. Life works the way it wants, but life is not as easy as people make it out to be. It's pretty difficult, if you ask me.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
15. Meh, I don't know. It's hard to describe a person without getting to know them better, even if you have a subjective opinion towards them. It's easier me to describe dislikes on people than likes, even if I've never met them before. It's extremely difficult for me to describe likes on someone, since I don't find many people to be trustworthy (or almost everyone). I can't necessarily find someone who's actually similar to me. A lot of people tend to have a variety of different personalities, which makes dealing with people more complicated for me. A lot people asked me for money and to do their homework and I've done a lot of this, but they've never done a favor to me before. It's just extremely irritating to see people asking for favors that are extremely unnecessary.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
16. I honestly don't know how to answer this question, since I'm not a relationship expert nor dated anyone before. I also tend to question about my sexuality, since I really don't know what it is. I've seen teenagers starting to get involved into relationships, but I'll tell you that they're always temporary. Even young adult relationships have these issues. These kinds of relationships don't really work, because they're already young and don't even know how life fully works. I don't even know how it fully works. Also, I've never been able to talk with females that much, since I don't share any interests with them and I get annoyed by their emotional expressions and I tend to argue sometimes with males, because I get annoyed by some of their actions and loudness (depending on the individual). People asked me if I ever been in a relationship and I always tend to become anxious whenever they ask me that. It's just appalling.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
17. My main concerns would be myself taking care of the child. I've never been really good with children in the first place. I've had younger children laughing at me for no reason whatsoever. Babies do the same thing, although I don't get annoyed as much. However, looking at younger children and babies getting attention and happiness from other people makes me sick and miserable and I hate saying this, but I do get a little envious in this case, since the kids don't really come off as disciplined and polite enough to get the attention from others. I've had younger children disrespecting me, yet they're the ones who always get protected and I'm the one who gets yelled at, just because I'm older. This doesn't make any sense.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
18. Nothing, but if it were for my younger self, then I would have easily get upset with them and ask why they're disagreeing with me. The current me wouldn't care at all. They have their own beliefs, I have my own beliefs. I don't care. Let them say whatever they want to say. It's none of my business. I would just stay quiet and focus on something else instead. Beliefs are subjective, after all. There's literally no point for someone to get easily upset/crybabying/emotional over another person's beliefs. It's better to accept whatever they're believing or whatever their opinion is. You can't change other mindset. Their mind grows every year after they gain new information and then believe what's best for them. I don't care whether they agree with me or not, they're just literally stating their own opinion/beliefs. Again, I have my own opinions, they have theirs.
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
19. I've pretty much described people almost throughout this questionnaire. Society is a waste of space. It's extremely terrible. I don't learn anything from society. I've never been able to fit in with society nor care about it in the first place. Whenever I see a group of people together, I just try to be avoidant or ignore them. Even some of the closest people I've met don't really come off as trustworthy to me. I've changed many locations/houses, so that's why I wasn't able to meet with others in a well-mannered way. I don't what I find good in other people. I've known many people having a variety of talents, although I've never been impressed by any of their abilities. Even the most successful and famous people don't have anything impressive and/or special about them. There are a variety of people I've known that I can't relate to. They are even people who have stereotypical traits and I don't like those traits either. Any stereotypical trait, really. My independence and solitude are better than dealing with a dumb/idiotic society that I don't really care about. These two traits make my brain more focused and concentrated, but at the same time it makes me brain completely blank due to my lack of social skills, confidence and understanding a variety of things in life. I've met my family/relatives classmates and teachers at school, neighbors at my neighborhood, people at a workplace, people on internet forums, I can't really get along with any of these guys. I hate saying hi and bye. I'm just forced to do say things like that. I don't even watch news to see what's going on with society. I just don't care about society at all.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
20. I'm not the type of person who talks with others first. If I ever try to start a conversation, I expect them to meet me first. I never take the first move. However, because of this, I've never really been able to find friends that last for a very long time. I've had classmates at school, but everyone treated me like I don't belong anywhere, like I'm nothing. They claim that I'm extremely stupid and unintelligent, because I don't talk to them nor I share any interests with them. My family also have questioned my abilities, mainly because of this. As far as friendships go, they're complicated. What I hate is this: whenever people play around with me, others laugh and find it extremely funny, but if I ever joke around or make fun of others, everyone gets overly and later blame on me for acting like this. It doesn't make any sense to me, seriously. I don't know what they want from me and vice-versa. I've had arguments with people too. I've had people asking for pens and pencils and they say they will bring back to me. I gave them one, but they never give it back to me. I've asked others to give me a pen and I always bring back to them, even though I still can't trust other people.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
21. I literally don't know how to deal with strangers, especially when we're talking about in real life. I absolutely have no opinion on strangers in real life. I always hesistate talking to them. I even hesistate to talk to people I know decently, because I just don't want to get overwhelmed by talking to others. As for strangers online, it's pretty much the same, although typing stuff online is slightly easier for me. However, I pretty much act the same whenever I go online. It's even easier for me to rant about things I actually find useless/pointless than doing it in real life. I still have a hard time, since I never met them in real life and they still behave a lot differently than I do, from what I've seen from their posts, replies and some very short conversations I had with them. Overall, strangers are like nothing to me. Nothing else to talk about here.
Personal concepts
1. What is beauty? What is love?
1. I don't know what to say first. I'm not really concerned with beauty as much as some people I've known. The way I look at things is kind of unusual. I usually pretend they don't look like anything a all, even though I know how they look like in the first place. For some reason, beauty is never the first thing I think about when looking at something. Love is something I don't necessarily express, mainly because expressing love is kind of uncomfortable for me and whenever people do this, it annoys me a lot, to the point where I want them to stop expressing love, even though I've never been able to do so. It's difficult for me to give compliments to others.
2. What are your most important values?
2. The only thing I value in life is independence. The more I grew up, the less values I've had in life. I've been pretty neurotic lately and I can't necessarily find any values that are important to me or others, besides independence. The way I perceive others' "values" can come off as rather untrustworthy to me, especially with the fact most people tend overly tend to focus on them, while others don't really follow them in the first place. So, basically I can't see anything as valuable to me. It probably doesn't make any sense to anyone, but I think it does to me, at least.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
3. I grew up as a Christian, although I haven't been practically following my religion for a very long time, to the point where my mindset is starting to change towards everything. Strangely enough, I tend to forget about my religion pretty often and my other characteristics such as race, gender, and nationality. I don't know why, but I just don't really care enough about these things. My mom gets angry whenever I say things like this (as she is very religious herself) but I don't really care what she says about this topic. We've been having different views towards life and society lately.
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
4. I'm not particularly someone who will ever go to war or military. My dad believed that I have to opportunity to anything that's related to war and/or military, just like other stereotypical men, but the reason why I'm avoidant with things like wars and militaries is because I don't care about them in the first place. Power is a delusional thing, in my opinion. Humans claim they have power, but their power is nowhere, but inside their heads. I mean, there's nothing I can do about people with "powers", but rather just ignore them, although ignoring someone I deemed as annoying, was a struggle for me.
Interests
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
5. I've had long conversations about gaming, specifically about Super Smash Bros., which was something I knew about for almost half a decade now. I just got to know someone that was interested in the series as well, and he knew abot the bigger aspects of the series as a whole, even the history of competitive Super Smash Bros. players, so that's how our conversations went. I'm not interested into other video games, besides Super Smash Bros., although I've been losing interest in the series lately, since it's gotten pretty old and tiring for my taste, so I don't really care about it as much anymore.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
6. Not really. I know what health is important, but I rarely take care of myself when it comes to personal hygiene. I rarely ever take showers (like once a week), rarely brush my teeth, never wash my face and later I get acne, and my hair is full of dandruff. When I was younger, I had tons of allergies, runny noses, and sore throats. I was easily overwhelmed by my allergies. I wish I focused more on my body in terms of health. I'm also strangely very underweight especially for my height, but a lot of people have told me that I should eat a lot more and exercise, but I'm very lazy.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
7. I don't like daily chordes at all. The only thing I can do daily chordes at home is to fix my bed, which I rarely ever do. My mom wanted me to do daily chordes once, so I can gain some energy, exercise, and confidence in life, but it never works. I always tell her no. She doesn't always ask me to do anything though, since she knows that I'm not interested in doing daily chordes. She's the only who does daily chordes at home and already gets tired of it. She believes she needa to takr a rest afterwards. Although, I know that she wants to make the house look cleaner and better, but I don't have the motivation to do anything at home.
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
8. I'll be honest, I don't read books nor watch movies. I just get overwhelmed by a lot of information that books have to provide and whenever I try to read, I can't do anything, but stop reading. It gives me a huge headache and sometimes I get dizzy while reading. just find it boring. Movies are just incredibly slow-paced, long, and boring, so I virtually don't care about them either. In fact, a lot of movies received negative reviews, so why should I watch them? Even watching actors on movies like idiots is just a waste of time. They're just a waste to society and the movie companies as a whole. I don't understand why people nowadays enjoy both of these things. However, music is worse than these two things and I can rant as much as I want about it. I can't recall what book I read or what movie I watched last.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
9. I've been emotionless, but also a lot more neurotic lately, but when I was younger, I always cried, because of bullying/people bothering me at school. I never talked to anybody at school, because it was a struggle for me and my mind couldn't handle socializing at all. People tried to talk to me, but afterwards, they started to hurt me physically and mentally. It's been 10 years since I've dealt with these issues. Although, I tried to move on from them, my outlook in society and real life changed a lot for now. As for smiling, it's not very common for me. Only a certain amount of things make me smile, such as achieving something that I never thought I could ever achieve. Or something that's coming inside my head, even though some people tend to be crazy, while others ask me why I'm laughing.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
10. When I use the Internet, I just focus on the Internet and forget what's actually outside of the Internet. However, whenever I go outside, I always have my head laying down and just keep overthinking stuff out of nowhere. When I look at something, such as a TV show, game, book, forum, I always wonder what would I do if I was in their world. When I'm at home, I know I'm at home, but it doesn't really matter to me all that much, since I'm at home every single day.
Evaluation & Behaviour
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
11. It depends on the person. Many people I met at a younger age, claimed that I lacked social and intellectual intelligence. Others claimed that I lacked confidence and empathy and I don't open up to others. Others claimed that I'm extremely weak when it comes to physical fights and sports. They believe I know nothing about TV shows, music, books and video games. Overall, they thought I was very stupid. They believed that I don't really deal with the outer world at all and that's kinda true, since I live at home all day doing absolutely nothing and have no social life. I'm not sure what I dislike about myself. Maybe the fact that I always keep secrets to everyone and may come off as cold and uncaring towards others. Almost every person I met believe that I absolutely hate everything and I don't know where they're coming from.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
12. I'm thinking academics only, although I don't find them as important as I used to. While I tend to do well in academics, I wasn't really a straight A student during high school and standardized testing was a huge problem for me. I never participated in extracurricular activities either, since they weren't actually my thing. The information we learned at school have become repetitive, to the point where I realize that schools only want you to learn/memorize the material and once you're done with the class, you dont have to think about the class again, which is pointless, because you'll forget everything afterwards. I'm not sure what I like about myself, to be honest. I'm actually that person that has no opinion towards themselves. I don't particularly like nor dislike myself.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
13. Interacting with the outer world and having a better and more optimistic look on real life and society. These two things can come off as a lot bigger than many people may think. I'm just struck here at home all day using the Internet going on forums for over 5 years now and whenever I talk with someone, I just get easily confused and don't really know what else to say to them. It makes me look stupid to other people whenever I try to talk to them, so that's why I tend to avoid contact with other people. I'm pretty much a cynic and a pessimist when it comes to the outer world. I don't think it offers anything that's particularly interesting to me and I dislike the fact that people tend to enjoy life in a optimistic and spontaneous manner.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes,s describe the causes and your reaction to it.
14. I had to look up the definition of the word "stuck in a rut", because I've never heard of it before up until yesterday/today. It takes me a while to recognize and understand words like this, since I don't really hear from other people, whether it's in real life or online. I'd say, yes I actually do, but I don't really mind or care. I've been used to this already. My daily routine is wake up, eat, go to school, stay there for 6-7 hours, come back home, eat, drink water, sleep. I'm pretty much on my room all day using the Internet, since I don't really have anything to do at home. My mom describes home as prison, because we barely do anything at home and we end up having a severe lack of communication to the outside world. This daily routine stays the same. It never changes. I'm also in the same mood everyday. Pretty much neutral, emotionless, bored, tired, sleepy, cynical and pessimistic, but I don't care. Life works the way it wants, but life is not as easy as people make it out to be. It's pretty difficult, if you ask me.
People & Interactions
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
15. Meh, I don't know. It's hard to describe a person without getting to know them better, even if you have a subjective opinion towards them. It's easier me to describe dislikes on people than likes, even if I've never met them before. It's extremely difficult for me to describe likes on someone, since I don't find many people to be trustworthy (or almost everyone). I can't necessarily find someone who's actually similar to me. A lot of people tend to have a variety of different personalities, which makes dealing with people more complicated for me. A lot people asked me for money and to do their homework and I've done a lot of this, but they've never done a favor to me before. It's just extremely irritating to see people asking for favors that are extremely unnecessary.
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
16. I honestly don't know how to answer this question, since I'm not a relationship expert nor dated anyone before. I also tend to question about my sexuality, since I really don't know what it is. I've seen teenagers starting to get involved into relationships, but I'll tell you that they're always temporary. Even young adult relationships have these issues. These kinds of relationships don't really work, because they're already young and don't even know how life fully works. I don't even know how it fully works. Also, I've never been able to talk with females that much, since I don't share any interests with them and I get annoyed by their emotional expressions and I tend to argue sometimes with males, because I get annoyed by some of their actions and loudness (depending on the individual). People asked me if I ever been in a relationship and I always tend to become anxious whenever they ask me that. It's just appalling.
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
17. My main concerns would be myself taking care of the child. I've never been really good with children in the first place. I've had younger children laughing at me for no reason whatsoever. Babies do the same thing, although I don't get annoyed as much. However, looking at younger children and babies getting attention and happiness from other people makes me sick and miserable and I hate saying this, but I do get a little envious in this case, since the kids don't really come off as disciplined and polite enough to get the attention from others. I've had younger children disrespecting me, yet they're the ones who always get protected and I'm the one who gets yelled at, just because I'm older. This doesn't make any sense.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
18. Nothing, but if it were for my younger self, then I would have easily get upset with them and ask why they're disagreeing with me. The current me wouldn't care at all. They have their own beliefs, I have my own beliefs. I don't care. Let them say whatever they want to say. It's none of my business. I would just stay quiet and focus on something else instead. Beliefs are subjective, after all. There's literally no point for someone to get easily upset/crybabying/emotional over another person's beliefs. It's better to accept whatever they're believing or whatever their opinion is. You can't change other mindset. Their mind grows every year after they gain new information and then believe what's best for them. I don't care whether they agree with me or not, they're just literally stating their own opinion/beliefs. Again, I have my own opinions, they have theirs.
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
19. I've pretty much described people almost throughout this questionnaire. Society is a waste of space. It's extremely terrible. I don't learn anything from society. I've never been able to fit in with society nor care about it in the first place. Whenever I see a group of people together, I just try to be avoidant or ignore them. Even some of the closest people I've met don't really come off as trustworthy to me. I've changed many locations/houses, so that's why I wasn't able to meet with others in a well-mannered way. I don't what I find good in other people. I've known many people having a variety of talents, although I've never been impressed by any of their abilities. Even the most successful and famous people don't have anything impressive and/or special about them. There are a variety of people I've known that I can't relate to. They are even people who have stereotypical traits and I don't like those traits either. Any stereotypical trait, really. My independence and solitude are better than dealing with a dumb/idiotic society that I don't really care about. These two traits make my brain more focused and concentrated, but at the same time it makes me brain completely blank due to my lack of social skills, confidence and understanding a variety of things in life. I've met my family/relatives classmates and teachers at school, neighbors at my neighborhood, people at a workplace, people on internet forums, I can't really get along with any of these guys. I hate saying hi and bye. I'm just forced to do say things like that. I don't even watch news to see what's going on with society. I just don't care about society at all.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
20. I'm not the type of person who talks with others first. If I ever try to start a conversation, I expect them to meet me first. I never take the first move. However, because of this, I've never really been able to find friends that last for a very long time. I've had classmates at school, but everyone treated me like I don't belong anywhere, like I'm nothing. They claim that I'm extremely stupid and unintelligent, because I don't talk to them nor I share any interests with them. My family also have questioned my abilities, mainly because of this. As far as friendships go, they're complicated. What I hate is this: whenever people play around with me, others laugh and find it extremely funny, but if I ever joke around or make fun of others, everyone gets overly and later blame on me for acting like this. It doesn't make any sense to me, seriously. I don't know what they want from me and vice-versa. I've had arguments with people too. I've had people asking for pens and pencils and they say they will bring back to me. I gave them one, but they never give it back to me. I've asked others to give me a pen and I always bring back to them, even though I still can't trust other people.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
21. I literally don't know how to deal with strangers, especially when we're talking about in real life. I absolutely have no opinion on strangers in real life. I always hesistate talking to them. I even hesistate to talk to people I know decently, because I just don't want to get overwhelmed by talking to others. As for strangers online, it's pretty much the same, although typing stuff online is slightly easier for me. However, I pretty much act the same whenever I go online. It's even easier for me to rant about things I actually find useless/pointless than doing it in real life. I still have a hard time, since I never met them in real life and they still behave a lot differently than I do, from what I've seen from their posts, replies and some very short conversations I had with them. Overall, strangers are like nothing to me. Nothing else to talk about here.