1. What is beauty? What is love?
Beauty stimulates a feeling where my senses are delighted or moved. It can be an art-form. A song that entrances, as if transporting me to another world. A movie scene that grips my heart, as I choke up in tears. I really enjoyed the movie American Beauty (1999). A feeling of freedom such as when the rush of 9-5 has long died and now it's near midnight and you, in your solitude, gaze out at all the city lights. There are many forms of beauty and even in "ugly" things, I bet I can find (or transform it into) something beautiful.
Love is when you care so much for the other person that his or her needs come first. You lower the walls around your heart and risk it getting ripped out and stomped on. Because there's just something about this person you can't get over. It's vulnerable. It's painful. It makes you do things that are out of character. You overlook flaws, you hope to see them more, and you burn through a roller coaster of emotions. You might feel jealous or bitter or undeserving or on top of the world or like you've been through a car crash.
Love and beauty are some of the most important things to me in the world.
2. What are your most important values?
Love. Strength. Courage. Perseverance. Loyalty.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I have had quite a few spiritual experiences but in the end I just couldn't find it logical enough to hold spiritual/religious beliefs. I often wonder if I would be happier if I did though. It seems really nice to have something to believe in and to have a place to belong to. I try not to be superstitious but I wind up sometimes feeling paranoid that people are out to get me anyway lol. I find spiritual crystals very pretty. Basically I feel drawn to spirituality in theory but another part of me fights it saying that it's non-sense :p
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
I don't particularly hold any strong opinions about war/military. I find Nazi/Holocaust stuff to be very interesting history. I enjoy strategies. I often have a GREAT burning desire to lead a revolution, having something worth dying for.
Power is freedom. Admittedly I'm quite driven toward attaining power for this reason. Power is also pretty fucking sexy. Attaining it, relinquishing it, abusing it, losing it, watching it. I find all power-plays fascinating.
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
I'm interested in all forms of art, interior design/home decor, music, travel, and things involving people such as psychology, society/humanity, relationships, etc. I used to like philosophy quite a bit. I like to go deep in my conversations. If not deep, then I want it to be fun or useful. I often talk about the future like whether I want to have kids or not, my goals, etc. I often think about how to improve my relationships with people, my purpose in life.. will I pass away without being able to make an impact on others? It would suck to be so useless. I don't want my life to be for nothing. I always felt like my life calling was to be a therapist or something.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
Hell no unless I have to. I think it's so annoying having to take care of my body >< My sleep schedule is often messed up. I like exercising though.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
Growing up my mom kept telling me how people will judge my personality based on how clean of a home I kept, so I try to be neat about my surroundings. She would make me wash my dishes and stuff right after eating, so that's what I do now. I don't mind daily chores because I wish to look presentable to others. My mood can be affected by my surroundings so I like for it to be beautiful and clean. I don't mind if other people are messy (I do end up cleaning any boyfriend's room up quite a bit :p).
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
I like movies with a dark/edgy/thrilling side like Fight Club, Black Swan, American Psycho, and Nightcrawler. Mind-fuck is good too like The Game. Survivalist films such as Battle Royale.
I like stuff geared toward teens too lol like Mean Girls, Cruel Intentions, Kingsman, etc. Risky stuff like Secretary and Showgirls. Funny films like Harold & Kumar. Really, I enjoy many genres.
Books - I like reading about vampires and true crime.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Oh god. I'm so emotional I can't answer this lol. The answer is everything, haha.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
I feel a sense of belonging when everyone is having fun and we are all getting along with each other :) When we have things in common. I really desire a feeling of belonging.. but it can be hard to find/maintain.
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
People can sometimes find me arrogant but deep down inside, I am actually not that confident about myself. I always think I can be better... that I don't do enough for other people, that I'm not enough for people :( I struggle with being on time, haha. I hate alarm clocks! I want to smash it lol. My perfectionism and indecisiveness can lead to procrastination. I dislike how sensitive/emotional I can be.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
People find me fun :3 They also think I have a way with words, both written and verbal. I like my creativity and moments of sweetness/romanticism.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Becoming better at taking care of my own needs. Consistency/direction. Being more practical.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
I think when it's too much monotony, which feels awful.
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
I like people that are inspiring, fun(ny), open-minded, enterprising, intelligent, passionate/intense, and daring. I dislike people that are uptight, selfish, entitled, stubborn, and if they can't take a joke or try new things. Greatly dislike victim mentality, too. I guess I get along with people that are open to a bit of weirdness! :p
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
Romance/sex is like at the center of my life. I can think about that shit 24/8. If I'm not careful, I can completely lose myself in it :/ My relationships should have a magical breathless component. I'm a fan of tortured star-crossed love. Wild. Consuming. Nearly drowned in obsession and addiction. Larger than life qualities like kissing passionately in the rain, stuff like in the movies ;)
I want a partner that is ambitious - his drive should inspire me to become a better person. I like someone logical, competent, and independent. Someone I can learn things from. More on the introverted side but still has leadership abilities if necessary. Someone who isn't afraid of standing out. An adventurous, fun side. Oh and add in some darkness, mm yeah~
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
My main concern is that my child would feel loved, that s/he would NEVER feel unwanted by me. To make sure I understand the child and s/he feels that. How a child is raised creates a huge impact on the rest of their life/personality, so I want to be very careful. Provide positive reinforcement but of course provide proper discipline as well so the child won't be too spoiled, ruining their work ethics and independence.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Ugh, I try very hard to be open-minded but if someone clashes with something I strongly believe in.. we're not going to have a good time. If it's not something I strongly believe in, like let's say a difference in religion or s/he is vegan and I eat meat, then that's okay. I try to be accepting of differences but honestly it can be hard :S
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
I very much want to LOVE people, truly love them but the actions that people take at times greatly disappoints me. I have had too many instances where my kindness led me to be taken advantage of. Socially, I think a huge issue in this world is apathy. People just don't care enough. Care about someone other than yourself! I despise selfishness.. but at the same time I recognize and understand how people can become that way. The world can be dog eat dog, so people look out for their own best interests. I've seen too much backstabbing, throwing people under a bus, broken families.. it's so sad. Another issue if I may list it? Lack of critical thinking in this world.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
Having things in common and getting along. I like to entertain people, like acting like a clown and tell crazy stories xD I often became the leader in a group of friends.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
I am very polite. I can be reserved with strangers at first because I have nothing to go off of and I don't want to say anything that'll upset them. Strangers that come up and talk to me often tell me I'm very friendly. I always engage in conversation back and keep it going if approached.
Aaaand we've finally reached the end here. What do you all think so far? Thank you very much for your time! :love:
Beauty stimulates a feeling where my senses are delighted or moved. It can be an art-form. A song that entrances, as if transporting me to another world. A movie scene that grips my heart, as I choke up in tears. I really enjoyed the movie American Beauty (1999). A feeling of freedom such as when the rush of 9-5 has long died and now it's near midnight and you, in your solitude, gaze out at all the city lights. There are many forms of beauty and even in "ugly" things, I bet I can find (or transform it into) something beautiful.
Love is when you care so much for the other person that his or her needs come first. You lower the walls around your heart and risk it getting ripped out and stomped on. Because there's just something about this person you can't get over. It's vulnerable. It's painful. It makes you do things that are out of character. You overlook flaws, you hope to see them more, and you burn through a roller coaster of emotions. You might feel jealous or bitter or undeserving or on top of the world or like you've been through a car crash.
Love and beauty are some of the most important things to me in the world.
2. What are your most important values?
Love. Strength. Courage. Perseverance. Loyalty.
3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place?
I have had quite a few spiritual experiences but in the end I just couldn't find it logical enough to hold spiritual/religious beliefs. I often wonder if I would be happier if I did though. It seems really nice to have something to believe in and to have a place to belong to. I try not to be superstitious but I wind up sometimes feeling paranoid that people are out to get me anyway lol. I find spiritual crystals very pretty. Basically I feel drawn to spirituality in theory but another part of me fights it saying that it's non-sense :p
4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you?
I don't particularly hold any strong opinions about war/military. I find Nazi/Holocaust stuff to be very interesting history. I enjoy strategies. I often have a GREAT burning desire to lead a revolution, having something worth dying for.
Power is freedom. Admittedly I'm quite driven toward attaining power for this reason. Power is also pretty fucking sexy. Attaining it, relinquishing it, abusing it, losing it, watching it. I find all power-plays fascinating.
5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why?
I'm interested in all forms of art, interior design/home decor, music, travel, and things involving people such as psychology, society/humanity, relationships, etc. I used to like philosophy quite a bit. I like to go deep in my conversations. If not deep, then I want it to be fun or useful. I often talk about the future like whether I want to have kids or not, my goals, etc. I often think about how to improve my relationships with people, my purpose in life.. will I pass away without being able to make an impact on others? It would suck to be so useless. I don't want my life to be for nothing. I always felt like my life calling was to be a therapist or something.
6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body?
Hell no unless I have to. I think it's so annoying having to take care of my body >< My sleep schedule is often messed up. I like exercising though.
7. What do you think of daily chores?
Growing up my mom kept telling me how people will judge my personality based on how clean of a home I kept, so I try to be neat about my surroundings. She would make me wash my dishes and stuff right after eating, so that's what I do now. I don't mind daily chores because I wish to look presentable to others. My mood can be affected by my surroundings so I like for it to be beautiful and clean. I don't mind if other people are messy (I do end up cleaning any boyfriend's room up quite a bit :p).
8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome.
I like movies with a dark/edgy/thrilling side like Fight Club, Black Swan, American Psycho, and Nightcrawler. Mind-fuck is good too like The Game. Survivalist films such as Battle Royale.
I like stuff geared toward teens too lol like Mean Girls, Cruel Intentions, Kingsman, etc. Risky stuff like Secretary and Showgirls. Funny films like Harold & Kumar. Really, I enjoy many genres.
Books - I like reading about vampires and true crime.
9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why?
Oh god. I'm so emotional I can't answer this lol. The answer is everything, haha.
10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging?
I feel a sense of belonging when everyone is having fun and we are all getting along with each other :) When we have things in common. I really desire a feeling of belonging.. but it can be hard to find/maintain.
11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself?
People can sometimes find me arrogant but deep down inside, I am actually not that confident about myself. I always think I can be better... that I don't do enough for other people, that I'm not enough for people :( I struggle with being on time, haha. I hate alarm clocks! I want to smash it lol. My perfectionism and indecisiveness can lead to procrastination. I dislike how sensitive/emotional I can be.
12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself?
People find me fun :3 They also think I have a way with words, both written and verbal. I like my creativity and moments of sweetness/romanticism.
13. In what areas of your life would you like help?
Becoming better at taking care of my own needs. Consistency/direction. Being more practical.
14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it.
I think when it's too much monotony, which feels awful.
15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with?
I like people that are inspiring, fun(ny), open-minded, enterprising, intelligent, passionate/intense, and daring. I dislike people that are uptight, selfish, entitled, stubborn, and if they can't take a joke or try new things. Greatly dislike victim mentality, too. I guess I get along with people that are open to a bit of weirdness! :p
16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner?
Romance/sex is like at the center of my life. I can think about that shit 24/8. If I'm not careful, I can completely lose myself in it :/ My relationships should have a magical breathless component. I'm a fan of tortured star-crossed love. Wild. Consuming. Nearly drowned in obsession and addiction. Larger than life qualities like kissing passionately in the rain, stuff like in the movies ;)
I want a partner that is ambitious - his drive should inspire me to become a better person. I like someone logical, competent, and independent. Someone I can learn things from. More on the introverted side but still has leadership abilities if necessary. Someone who isn't afraid of standing out. An adventurous, fun side. Oh and add in some darkness, mm yeah~
17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why?
My main concern is that my child would feel loved, that s/he would NEVER feel unwanted by me. To make sure I understand the child and s/he feels that. How a child is raised creates a huge impact on the rest of their life/personality, so I want to be very careful. Provide positive reinforcement but of course provide proper discipline as well so the child won't be too spoiled, ruining their work ethics and independence.
18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction?
Ugh, I try very hard to be open-minded but if someone clashes with something I strongly believe in.. we're not going to have a good time. If it's not something I strongly believe in, like let's say a difference in religion or s/he is vegan and I eat meat, then that's okay. I try to be accepting of differences but honestly it can be hard :S
19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one.
I very much want to LOVE people, truly love them but the actions that people take at times greatly disappoints me. I have had too many instances where my kindness led me to be taken advantage of. Socially, I think a huge issue in this world is apathy. People just don't care enough. Care about someone other than yourself! I despise selfishness.. but at the same time I recognize and understand how people can become that way. The world can be dog eat dog, so people look out for their own best interests. I've seen too much backstabbing, throwing people under a bus, broken families.. it's so sad. Another issue if I may list it? Lack of critical thinking in this world.
20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them?
Having things in common and getting along. I like to entertain people, like acting like a clown and tell crazy stories xD I often became the leader in a group of friends.
21. How do you behave around strangers?
I am very polite. I can be reserved with strangers at first because I have nothing to go off of and I don't want to say anything that'll upset them. Strangers that come up and talk to me often tell me I'm very friendly. I always engage in conversation back and keep it going if approached.
Aaaand we've finally reached the end here. What do you all think so far? Thank you very much for your time! :love: