Member Questionnaire 1 (Viktor)
What is beauty? What is love? - Beauty is when things feel real and meaningful. Love is when you like something but even more
What are your most important values? - Independence, freedom, power, truth, fun, ass
Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place? - No I'm an atheist
Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you? - I think there's power dynamics in everything, most of it is probably hidden, sometimes it might just be implicit and people might not even be aware of it. I don't think people can just trust eachother unconditionally, because the world doesn't work that way, so nations need to have armies to defend themselves. And there's always gonna be wars, because sometimes there's just no way of people to work together. People are different and have different agendas, and if we can't get accross to eachother then it has to be solved with conflict. Even if people can get across to eachother, then they might still end up fighting, because winning is often more important than following some principle. The guys at the top get there by not caring about morality, and in order to fight them you have to do the same. So basically, the nations that rule the world do so by being dominating, they came into existence by a selective process. The reason why the US exists is because of colonization, so if you live there then you do so thanks to the people that went over there and killed all the indians. Maybe you'd rather live naked in the djungle, but this is why modern civilization exists
What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why? - Music, video games, the stock market, new technologies, conspiracy theories. I like to think about creative things and what's happening in the world to get a context for what I'm doing. Like if this conspiracy theory is true, then how does that relate to my life. And if this thing is happening in the world, then how will that affect the market.
Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body? - No not really, but I'll talk about keto dieting or nutrition in general. I'm only interested in it for the sake of losing weight and building muscle, I've never been very concerned about health in general.
What do you think of daily chores? - I tend to postpone them for a really long time. It's not really that I'm lazy, because I'll work really hard at my job, I just don't really care about how my home looks like unless someone is visiting. If someone is visiting then I always clean up, and I'll get embarassed if it looks shitty, but for me personally it doesn't matter. And if I don't have that motivation of making it look good for others then I just won't do it in a long time
Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome. - For books I liked Atlas Shrugged and Startship Troopers. I like tarantino movies. I like good movies in general, I don't like watching movies just for the hell of it, I'm very picky, most movies are really bad. I like the curve stomp scene from american history x
What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why? - One time I almost beat up my friend and then I apologized and cried ;( I smile a lot while just having nice conversations. Weird things makes me laugh, unexpected or fucked up things that catch me offguard in general
Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging? - Not really anywhere, maybe in video game PvP. I guess when I do manual labour I feel in the zone. I did a welding course once, and I didn't really feel like I belonged with the people, but the welding in itself made me feel one with it. I like working with my hands, but I generally get bored with people that work with things like that
What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself? - Being directionless, not knowing what to do with my life. Also being disorganized and not taking care of obligations. My mother says I'm "catastrophe-thinking", always imagining what can go wrong. I've been told I'm unsure of myself, don't trust myself. I dislike that I keep telling myself I'm gonna do things differently and then I just make the same mistakes
What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself? - Physical strength, being funny, being smart, being persistent and not giving up, sacrificing happiness for the sake of some goal, being impartial and objective. I like that I'm a free thinker and that I have a clear view of the world. I like that I can make people laugh. I like that I'm good at optimizing how to do things, I feel like I can do things more efficiently than most people because I can see through unnecessary things and I understand how to make things work to meet their goal
In what areas of your life would you like help? - I need help with getting inner peace, putting my brain back together. I like when people talk me through what my goals are, I don't wanna be guided and told what to do, but I need someone to talk me through it because I get distracted and lose focus. I need help with connecting emotionally with people, having meaningful relationships and not just shallow fun.
Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it. - Yeah the last year of high school I was in a rut. I was really tired of school, so I stayed at home a lot. But at the same time I had picked a lot of hard courses, I had 7 math classes, 2 physics classes and 2 chemistry classes for example, I was reading the natural science programme, so I was behind in a lot of subjects and I was really stressed. Basically I was staying at home to finish old stuff, which made me miss new classes, so I was always behind the last year. I also picked a way too hard graduation project, and I postponed it for a really long time. And then when I finally started working on it I realized it was way too hard for me, I'd been taking on too much work, so I had to talk with my mentor so I could do a different project, which meant that I didn't graduate until half a year after everyone else because I had to do the project. Basically I was stressed all the time and didn't have my shit in order. Things like that makes it hard to enjoy anything else because it's always on your mind, so I really was in a rut
What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with? - I like people that are open and reasonable, I feel like I can't get through to some people. I like to talk about ideas and the future, small talk makes me really bored. But it has to be useful ideas, I don't wanna talk about physics or pointless philosophising. Basically when I'm the most engaged in discussions it's almost like I'm talking about strategy, like what I'm gonna do with my life and how, and then we can discuss if there's better ways to do it. I really value realness in people, I respect honesty and when people are being themselves, I don't like politeness. I like eccentric people as long as they aren't too openly nerdy about it. I like obscenity and things that catch me offguard, crazy people are entertaining to me, and I like that more than being boring and normal
How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner? - I'm not very romantic. With sex I'm very forward and initiating, but I'm not good at creating an intimate atmosphere, I'm kinda cold and too direct about it. The longest relationships I've had lasted for a few weeks. I ended them because I didn't want to commit, and sometimes because I thought they were embarassing and I didn't want to be seen with them. That was when I was younger though, I haven't had a serious relationship in a long time, I've been going for one time things for a while now, but now I want a relationship again since I'm older. Smiling is really important to me, and I need someone that is understanding and that can forgive me for getting angry at times. I don't wanna be judged and I don't want them to bitch at me, I prefer it if they are calm and can be patient and help me out if I'm doing something wrong. I don't wanna be told what to do.
If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why? - Make sure he/she gets a good start in life, have many friends, do physical things like maybe team sports so he/she won't be a nerd or loser. I think that's among the most important things, just get them out there to do human things so they can function around people. Also he/she needs to stand up for himself/herself, I need to make them tough. Also I need to teach them formal logic so they can't be mind controlled
A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction? - Totally fine, I don't give a shit. Let's talk about it and maybe one of us can learn something. If you don't wanna be open to changing your mind, then lets forget about it. Actually, if it's something really stupid then I'm gonna tell him why it's stupid and I might get angry. It depends on how serious the topic is. If I'm really sure of myself on something, and it's actually important to me, then I'll dismiss opinions that go against mine, because I actually think things through, and eventually I make up my mind that I'm done thinking about it. But with more every day philosophical thoughts I'm very open, I don't get worked up unless it actually matters
Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one. - I go my own way, I generally don't like the way the world is heading. I think normal people are boring, but I don't dislike them. I think the insane leftist post modern stuff that is happening is a serious problem, feminism and sneaky communist shit
How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them? - I find most of my friends while I'm out drinking, I like people that I can be uninhibited with, I like wild shit but also nerd shit
How do you behave around strangers? - I'm just being myself, I'm not shy at all and I don't really have the energy to put up a front to strangers