Hi everybooody,
So I'm very confused. I've been through the whole typing thing over and over again and I keep finding myself on this obsessive almost OCD-like search for my "real type". Nothing seems to fit.
Okay so please let me know what you think!
As a kid I hated loud noises and would cry around them. I grew to enjoy music and loud concerts around my teen years and eventually it became going to raves. I really love the moment at concerts where you lose yourself and feed off of everyone's energy. Drugs make people uninhibited and I was more than able to feed off of that and enjoy dancing in a carefree environment. This is why I joined a choir in highschool and now that I am in college I joined one again because you are able to reach a complete flow state in it.
In addition, I have a very hard time having a definite personality. What I mean by that is that I am a VERY changeable person and often know what people want to hear and what they need, so I become that person. I often get tired of it and suddenly flip getting sad that I am "misunderstood" (lol angsty af) and nobody knows the real me, even though I don't even.
I am an extremely changeable new day, new me type of person and I think that is the main reason why mbti or socionics isn't giving me a result I feel fits enough.
I am really serious, like internally very angry. I take myself seriously and hate when people laugh at everything in the world. I am not carefree and I try to be as thoughtful as possible. Yet, I don't think this comes across to people and I find most people think I'm careless because I try to act this way. I do not feel as though my inner world and outer world collide by any means.
I am inconsistent and often am switching my mind on things. I am interested in philosophy and psychology as well as astrology/numerology and other new age things. Not so much that I commit to any life/viewpoint but I just find it all very interesting.
People seem to take care of me, always assuming that I am not fully here or I am not capable of taking care of myself. I find it extremely annoying because I don't ask for help. Loved ones always know I'm not dressing for the weather/eating enough/cleaning my room/etc and take it upon themselves to bug me about it lol. This is even down to the way I dress which is always frustrating. I like to always do things to express my own individuality but I find myself detached to most aesthetic choices and it is instead a momentary decision and not "a style". To put it simply, I don't realize it, but apparently I'm a mess lol.
I don't take conflict/criticism well and am SO afraid of being put on the spot or having to do something in public. I'm committed to helping people and that seems to be the most consistent thing. I need a lot of alone time and "escape time" but love being around others so I can help them in any way!
I was an Art Major in college but switched to Philosophy and found that people never liked my work because I didn't provide enough information. I stubbornly refused to make my work more obvious because I felt like that ruined the point of everything. I am accused, in the same way, as not being overt enough in everyday life and maintain a vagueness about my communication. I just don't like to make things obvious!! I'm not sure why. And I don't like when people make things obvious, I enjoy thinking about it and imagining the meaning(s) up on my own.
Okay that is all for now. Lol
Sorry also because I'm writing this while I am pretty tired. Let me know if you have any questions!
So I'm very confused. I've been through the whole typing thing over and over again and I keep finding myself on this obsessive almost OCD-like search for my "real type". Nothing seems to fit.
Okay so please let me know what you think!
As a kid I hated loud noises and would cry around them. I grew to enjoy music and loud concerts around my teen years and eventually it became going to raves. I really love the moment at concerts where you lose yourself and feed off of everyone's energy. Drugs make people uninhibited and I was more than able to feed off of that and enjoy dancing in a carefree environment. This is why I joined a choir in highschool and now that I am in college I joined one again because you are able to reach a complete flow state in it.
In addition, I have a very hard time having a definite personality. What I mean by that is that I am a VERY changeable person and often know what people want to hear and what they need, so I become that person. I often get tired of it and suddenly flip getting sad that I am "misunderstood" (lol angsty af) and nobody knows the real me, even though I don't even.
I am an extremely changeable new day, new me type of person and I think that is the main reason why mbti or socionics isn't giving me a result I feel fits enough.
I am really serious, like internally very angry. I take myself seriously and hate when people laugh at everything in the world. I am not carefree and I try to be as thoughtful as possible. Yet, I don't think this comes across to people and I find most people think I'm careless because I try to act this way. I do not feel as though my inner world and outer world collide by any means.
I am inconsistent and often am switching my mind on things. I am interested in philosophy and psychology as well as astrology/numerology and other new age things. Not so much that I commit to any life/viewpoint but I just find it all very interesting.
People seem to take care of me, always assuming that I am not fully here or I am not capable of taking care of myself. I find it extremely annoying because I don't ask for help. Loved ones always know I'm not dressing for the weather/eating enough/cleaning my room/etc and take it upon themselves to bug me about it lol. This is even down to the way I dress which is always frustrating. I like to always do things to express my own individuality but I find myself detached to most aesthetic choices and it is instead a momentary decision and not "a style". To put it simply, I don't realize it, but apparently I'm a mess lol.
I don't take conflict/criticism well and am SO afraid of being put on the spot or having to do something in public. I'm committed to helping people and that seems to be the most consistent thing. I need a lot of alone time and "escape time" but love being around others so I can help them in any way!
I was an Art Major in college but switched to Philosophy and found that people never liked my work because I didn't provide enough information. I stubbornly refused to make my work more obvious because I felt like that ruined the point of everything. I am accused, in the same way, as not being overt enough in everyday life and maintain a vagueness about my communication. I just don't like to make things obvious!! I'm not sure why. And I don't like when people make things obvious, I enjoy thinking about it and imagining the meaning(s) up on my own.
Okay that is all for now. Lol
Sorry also because I'm writing this while I am pretty tired. Let me know if you have any questions!